as i am me but just a high me, the high me is the more real one.
i know you will hate yourself if you dont watch this video about the greece financial crisis you keep talking your arse off abut he subject but what do you really know? do you know what your talking about? no you copy other people half baked ideas as your own and because other people don't have the time to shop around for ideas you get away with it. you need to move on from this you neeeed to watch it and and understand it . you want to be a better person so for fucks sake actually do something. get off your arse and do the things you want to do. no more half doing things. seriously you know you actually want and is it because your scared of failing? is it because what does it actually matter if you fail
so you fail you move on it will hurt and you will learn to deal with pain. real pain
you cry sometimes and you dont know why are all the motions bottled up and the real me is inside and im just afraid of letting her out. im scared that the side people see of me isnt the real me but the created me visualized by what i wanted to be as a child.  i need to write more. i think it actually gets my emotions out. fuck i need to type not physically write. maybe i should start accepting that im dyslexic rather then trying to beat myself out of it by forcing myself to do it.